>>26313>>26312and even more enraging is i didn't want to take them and rebelled against my parents constantly and they essentially forced me to take them, got me admitted into psych wards put me in boot camps and military programs and the drugs basically made me a schizo, being a dumb child i associated the effects on my state of midn with some kind of magical thinking, and withdrawal from them made me worse than i ever was before. i'm totally hopeless and broken that's why i just shitpost on these sites all day, my life is pure misery but i cant kill myslef