>>11015It's more how she treated me that shaped me. She was also having sex with me in secret and cheating on her boyfriends, grown men in their 30s like doctors and shit who were planning on marrying her. I mean technically they are the ones being cucked since she was cheating on them with me but it hurt me a lot and the way she was to me during sex was like domineering and ordering me and instructing me on what to do to her and how to fuck her, and she was really toxic and controlling.
Basically I wouldn't be a submissive masochist into/ss and would prolly be a normie who had sex and normal relationships and wouldn't even have ever come to a community like this if it didn't happen
But yeah I get the nice cuz I felt like a super Chad who had achieved the ultimate conquest at the time but that's not how it affected me later in life