/what/ - mugi

I thought I was beautiful….I thought that I could be irresistible to women, but why was it then that they choose him over me? I go through the motions of wooing women and sleeping with them, so why am I so grieved at the site of these specific women choosing this mere boy without any prior conversations with him? Maybe I was not clear enough with my intentions to such above women. Maybe they simply were not interested in me. Perhaps I am simply a fool who wears his heart on his sleeve in an environment where the heart has been cast aside for lustful pleasures where no strings are attached. I am being bitter when I know I have done the same thing to other women, but the the thought of not being desire or preferred over this boy, this oh too close friend of mine, is too much to bare.

I think my days of sexual deviance and seduction of women are at their end as the new generation comes to the scene.